Two Days till Christmas

Or two sleeps till Christmas as my girl Moos Mamma say. I like how she puts it. Makes it sound more...I don't know exactly, just better. Right now, I'm on VACATION!!! Vacation from work and a break from school, YAY!! I so needed this time. Spawn and I are going to spend all next week together.

There hasn't been too much going on. Things with DiNozzo are amazing. He and Spawn get along and that is awesome. Things are fairly quite from the Empire, aside from not paying his child support. I guess because Spawn won't talk to him when he bother's to call he feels that he shouldn't obey a court order. Here's hoping that changes soon.

So here we are racing toward Christmas, all the cookies are baked, all the presents are almost bought and despite everything it's going to be an amazing Christmas. I get to spend it with my closest friends and family, my spawn and my sweetie.

What happened to Nov

Okay so as mentioned in the previous post, I did type a post in Nov and I really did think that I posted it. Um, yeah well that was about the time that all hell broke loose in mine and spawn's life so (shrugs) things happen.

Sometimes we look at things we go through and situations we're in and we mentally divorce ourselves from them. We're there but not really there. I had one of those hell bent, OMFG please tell me this is not happening in my life moments last month. As many of you that read this blog, and many of you that I read as well, know dealing with what we deal with on a daily basis with our children that have mental illness is in a word difficult. There is always the constant struggle to make sure that they are receiving the right services, the right care, the right everything. The keeping of ones temper when they are suddenly in a manic phase, the temper tantrums, the struggling to parent and get through to them when it seems like you can't reach them at all.

And I play both mom and dad. Thank god for my friends and my roomies that are wonderfully supportive, my boyfriend too. Coming into a situation like this is never easy, hell dating as a single parent is hard enough, when you add all this on top of it it's damn near impossible. But I digress, Okay here goes, Spawn had a bad med reaction and her first hospitalization, she was inpatient for almost a week. I think the hardest thing for me to come to grips with besides the fact that it was needed, was I work there.  Her meds are more stable now and while things are not perfect, they are at least better.

As I mentioned in previous posts, I had to go to court last month as well due to Vader not paying his child support. Well to make a long story short, he didn't show up, reported that he lived and worked in the state and then requested a phone conference for the hearing because of working out of state. The hearing officer was less then pleased. So if he gets caught doing anything then he will be arrested and there is a $1000 purge or 60 days in jail. He's called a few times however I am still under advisement from her therapist not to respond due to her reaction the last time and the fact that she gets angry every time he's mentioned. I offer her the chance to return his call. So far she hasn't taken it. I'm sure you're wondering why I just don't try to talk to him about all this. Well, he doesn't think I'm worth talking to, so I don't think he's worth picking up the phone for.

In other news, the show I was in went wonderfully. B and I are still doing good, it will be two months soon. I'm enjoying it and I believe he is too. He is greatly supportive and I needed that right now. Work is still insane, but well, that is to be expected.

So in the mean time, I'm going to keep hoping that Spawn's meds work, hope that Vader pays even a little of the support, hell I'd take just enough to pay for her dance lessons for a month, or even a week of day care. Something, anything to help. Between the meds, the dr's and the therapy co-pays I am getting eaten alive. According to the court order he's supposed to pay half of the co-pays for any visits. I haven't even bothered to ask since he won't pay anything toward the monthly that is due, I know  he wouldn't pay anything toward those.

Well onward to the holidays and I will not go so long in between posts.

Hell Week and everything that went with it....

Note: this post is way late due to complications in the month of Nov. I thought I hit post and didn't, so here is the post that should have happened on Nov 13.

So this week has been hell week. Basically what that means is that the show I'm in, Over the River and Through the Woods opened last night. So we've been running tech all week and wow...boy do I mean wow...anyone who has done community theater knows what I mean by that.

In other news, also this week I had a total of 3 external audits at work with one to get ready for and a holiday in the middle of the week for Veteran's Day (which also happens to be my birthday and dress rehearsal for our show) I'm not really sure I could have packed more into one week.

I've been under so much stress lately. With school, work, the show, continuing issues with Harmony...one of the few things that is going well right now is my relationship with DiNozzo. During the run of the show, actually in two days we'll make one month. I'm so proud of us. Well more as it happens.

So it's the end of the week...

So here we are...Friday....Oh Praise the Flying Spaghetti Monster and all his noodlely appendages. I so needed Friday to happen...Just the idea of Friday is a great comfort to me.

So this week has been less then thrilling in a good way. The BF (whom I {with help}have decided reminds me of DiNozzo from NCIS and henceforth shall be named so) will hopefully be sprung from the place of medical entrapment tomorrow.  That will be one less thing to worry about. I dislike it when people I care about are ill. It bothers me.

So in other news, tonight I get to see my boys from NY. M has been on of my close friends for, oh hell I can't even remember how long. We met a million years ago when he worked at the bowling alley and I bowled in a league every Friday night. His second or so night, he was stuck with the league I was on (which was a tough league to deal with) so we met and became friends. He's getting married to his BF, R, in June which I will be making a journey north for. For old times sake, we're going bowling tonight. Should be fun. Who knows...but time with them is always fun.

Tomorrow night, a Halloween party....we'll see what trouble I can not get into then.

Till then, Ciao Luvs

Well..um...

Okay so I'm not sure what in the name of Zen happened. I think my life blew up....

There are problems with Spawn at school....every day I get a call to the school. It's so bad that the front office staff and I have a running joke about how long it's going to take me to leave my job and go to work there. None of the doctors can figure out what is really going on with her. I really hope that one day I can look back on this time and just be glad that we got through it.

We go back to court on Nov 17th for the child support. Vader is in contempt since he hasn't paid in 4 months and hasn't been in contact with them.

Things are going well with the new BF...I haven't figured out a name for him on here yet...I'm open to suggestions though as I do need to refer to him as something. He's been in the hospital this week. What a way to start a new relationship, "here go through a major illness with me and see if you can handle it" Got to love those unexpected things. But I'm crazy about him so, we'll see.

Other then that, work is crazy (see blog name for my take on that) and school is, well, I finished a semester and started a new one. Not including the semester I am in, I have two more classes. I'm almost there finally!!!!! I am 8 weeks till Christmas break and damn do I need it, I'm in the 3rd semester of a 3 semester haul....those are hard with a full time job and kid.

Well off to work with me, thanks for reading all. It means more to me then you'll ever know.

Just when you don't expect it...

Just when you don't expect it you get smacked with whatever the Fates think is funny to throw in your path. Right now for me, that happens to be a new person in my life. They (The Fates) know damn good and well that I don't have time for this right now with school, work, Spawn, Spawn's dance class, my re-commitment to theater, etc. However, Fate seemed to not only have a sense of humor about all of this, they got help from my friends.

Now it really is true that you do get by with a little help from your friends (Thank you Ringo) In this case my friends pushed me into something that I love and in turn I met someone that I think I will love, already do love, am completely swept away by. Well hell, he makes me giddy and I don't do giddy.

The coolest part about this entire thing is that we sync, there are a lot of times where he will say exactly what I am thinking. He says that I do the same thing to him. So right now, we're all bright and shiny. I'll post an updates as this goes on. So far I can say that the first 3 weeks have been wonderful. I can't wait to see what happens next.

Oh for Goodness Sakes

Where in the name of Zen has the time gone?? Well I can tell you for one, I wish like hell it has been Zen but on the flip side things are starting to get a little better. Okay here is the less then a thousand words (I hope) update on what has been going on since we last talked.

Work: Let me just say this about working in mental health, it gives you a different outlook on life and the people that you encounter on a daily basis. You really do start to think of people as various degrees of crazy and judge then on their need for services. I do this all the time try not to do all the time, but sometimes it doesn't work. We're in the middle of a big shift at work and it's taking all of the spare brain cells that I have to deal with it.

School: Me-I have now applied for graduation. We're that close folks. YAY!!!!
Spawn-She is doing well, her progress report was A's & B's we'll be getting the report card soon so I'll update then. The behavioral issues that were present at the beginning of the year have calmed down some and things seem to be evening out.

General Life: Well, Spawn is going to dance and doing REALLY well at it. I'm so proud of my boo with with this. She had been asking for years to take lessons but now that I have taken the plunge and put her in I am determined to find a way to keep her there as long as she wants to keep doing it. As for me, I have gone back to the community theater. I've returned to the board of directors and I'm currently cast in the next show opening in Nov. As far as a personal life, things are looking up a little bit, I've met someone that I wasn't expecting and he's wonderful. I don't want to say too much about it yet because it's still bright and shiny, and I don't want to jinx it.

So that's it, I'm going to not go as long in between posts.