I'm still here....

Okay, so the jist of the last almost year is this...

In February right before H's birthday I was hit by a truck. This is not a metaphor for anything, I think it was a Silveradro (or however you spell it) actually or maybe a F150 but it was a truck. The little dude that was driving said truck at 600 pm one fine Florida evening was, well he was drunk. Guess that's why he ran into me. So my whole "let's blog more often in the coming year" promise to myself that I made went the way of my left collar bone..broken.

Also in this time frame of being broke and battered by a truck (I know it's an often used phrase but until you've really been hit by a truck you have no idea and should really stop saying it, just sayin) I moved. Yes, after a 10 year relationship with my awesome rommies, we broke up. Now, as far as break ups go it was prolly one of the best ones yet. We're all still friends and such and no one hates anyone. It was just time to see what B and I could do with this and well for me to stop hiding behind the safety net of home.

It really had become a safety net and a trap for me. I didn't have to put too much out there ya know, I could just stay in my little shell (shy turtle) and use the convenient excuse "well I have roommates"  Yes, sneaky turtle too...So I moved, while broken...I recommend that about as much as I recommend getting hit by the truck (which, in case you missed it, is not at all)  and so far it's...well...I like that he's next to me each night.

Moving on-H is starting middle school...and as the war drums beat and the hormones start raging I'm scared to death. If any of you that actually read this have or have had middle schoolers and have any words of wisdom, please leave them below. In related new, H in her rather princess like way told Vader to kiss off. Apparently he pissed her off with his girlfriend's kids and now regardless of what I do/say/try will not see or speak to him. Not so oddly, she's been doing a lot better since. The great and wonderful wizard of child support finally caught up with Vader and is now excising their right to send me part of his check. He, however is trying to play it off like this is something he's doing willingly. Whatever helps you sleep at night dude...

Theater is still full of drama...okay that was lame, however in my last post I mentioned that I had done my first lead role. I was given the best actress award for it at the theater's annual awards show. My sweetie also directed his first show this season and also won for best director so I was uber proud.

You know how sometimes you run across things and you look back and you never saw yourself getting to where you are. That was kinda deep wasn't...I guess that's where I am. I didn't see myself a year ago, or even in September at the time of my last post, where I am now. Guess it just proves that you really never can tell what's going to happen. Till next time.

It's Still Crazy

So here we are again. I can't tell you when I last posted nor do you care. What matters is, I'm posting again. For some reason I have to do this from my phone because my pc is stupid...I tried to get to my blog and it said no...what an ass it's been lately...I'll try again tomorrow when I just might post again.
So, here's what's new...nothing. Oh wait, that's not true. I did a show. My first lead, Ken Ludwig's The Fox on the Fairway. I was Pamela. Very funny show, great cast and I got to be on stage with my honey again. What more can one ask for...well, getting paid would have been something more but alas this was community theater.

H is in 5th grade now and still dancing...it's her 3rd year. I just might get bold and post a picture. She's doing better since the Empire fell and Vader has returned somewhat to the good side of the Force...I wonder though if a Sith can ever really change his side of the Force. For now it's okay. He's even trying to pay his support like he's supposed to...How about that...The more time I spend with H and Vader the more I think about things...random things. Disclaimer: I am very happy with where I am and who I'm with. B is my person, there is no denying that. Vader and I wouldn't have made it if we had tried to stay together. (Think, "Don't cross the streams" bad)

But still...Have you ever gone back to where you were before and found that nothing's changed and that the same people are still there, doing the same things...to make the reason you just left still valid. I did that recently. Nothing dramatic, just back to a message board I used to post on. What I found was the same people, talking about the same things, in the same ways. No one really missed me. Most of them that I wanted to keep track of (or who wanted to keep track of me) were friends of mine on Facebook. But what I really discovered was that I didn't miss it, because along with all of the names I recognized was some of the names that I got tired of listening to, hence why I left.  I had heard that someone we used to post with had passed away and that made me sad, she was always nice to me on-line.

Some people say that you can't have real friends over the internet. I disagree. Yes, it is easier to lie to people. Easier to be mean to people and easier to have an over-inflated sense of self (I really feel like I should link to some you tube video here but I've got nothin) But for some, it's easier to be themselves. I guess that is what draws people to places like message boards and what can drive them from them...

So, we'll try this again tomorrow when hopefully my PC won't be a jerk...and maybe, just maybe you'll have read what I rambled about...

WTF...iTunes?

Please note that this post was supposed to be posted in May 2012, but for some reason (i.e. I forgot to post it) it didn't get posted but here it is anyway cause well since I wrote it you should get to read it right? 

Okay yes I know, I think I've used that as the title of a blog post before but today deserves it. Today was the day from HELL. In case you don't know, Hell is a small place in the Islands with a gift shop a post office and black rocks...HELL, however has lots of not so nice things and where today was currently residing. 

So at the start of today everything was normal. I took H to school and headed to Wal-Greens to pick up a couple of things before work. Just happened to check my bank balance (I love my bank's mobile app) and notice that there is not as much money in there as there should be. After I check the transactions I see two transactions labeled something about iTunes...hmm, says I...I don't buy anything from iTunes and when I do I use an iTunes gift card...

Well yup, you guessed it. My ATM card was hacked by some asshats somewhere that thought they could steal my money. Now, I don't have much money to begin with...My bank is a wonderful place that not only gave me back my money quickly, but also reversed a couple of bounce charges as a result of said asshats and their taking of what wasn't theirs. 

The only thing that I had a problem with was the dealing without a ATM card for 7-10 days...I HATE carrying cash, more over I hate grocery shopping with cash...but hey it's only Wal-Mart right...wish me luck and until next time....

 

 

 

Redirection

I think it's time for some redirection here in my little blogworld. That sounds like some kind of freaky theme park doesn't it? Well as long as I don't have a homicidal clown (yes, I've been on the Simpsons ride too many times) we're good. So as I was saying, redirection. Right now, my poor blog is just kinda hanging out here with no where to go and nothing for you wonderful people to read. Hell, I don't even know if anyone is bothering to read anymore...

But, that's the point, I want you to read, to talk back even...Although I'm sure, just like with my kid, I should be careful what I ask for. So, we are going to change things up just a little. I should be going into this with some kind of plan but well...I can never stick to those. Kinda like a diet, I get bored. Speaking of diets, I'm not on one but I am using this great app on my phone to log what I eat. It's making me realize that I eat crap...Mission accomplished. I am however trying to change that so I'm sure you will be hearing about my craving for fried foods and my sudden interest in donuts.

So feel free to comment, although I don't think any of you are out there anymore (it would be great if you were)..,.No subject is off limits anymore, however names might be changes to protect the guilty, or just because I feel like it.

Oh I almost forgot, new blog I've found this week...told you I've been reading (and it's been more then just Hunger Games and Harry Potter) A Beautiful Mess Inside Go check this out, she's awesome.

It's Been This Kind Of A Week...

So as you can see from the picture, enough said...now on to the weekend...

Crossroads

So I find myself here again. After many months of not blogging because I forgot or I was tired or I just didn't effing want to. Whatever the reason, here I am...I feel like there should be some music here. Alas I have none..

So here we are, you who is reading the pointless words that I am writing. Perhaps, you like me, have gone searching for answers, and in some hopeful nature you think that you might find them with other bloggers...Well, there aren't any here. I have no answers. This bothers me on a daily basis that I don't and I'm not coming to terms with it in anyway, at all.

While I'm not coming to terms with stuff I've been reading...Advice columns, news papers, books, blogs..,.

I suggest heading over to  The Bloggess and reading her blog. Hey buy her book too, it will provide you with hours of endless humor.  

For books, I fell to peer pressure and read the Hunger Games, I even saw the movie (I know, my boyfriend and I did manage a date between shows and rehearsals, this does happen every few months) Little disappointed in the treatment of a couple of things in the movie but I think it had wonderful casting.

I've been watching a excessive amount of Food Network...Chopped is my show...to the point where the dear roomies have suggested I start a food blog...I'm mulling that over so stay tuned.

Back to the Bloggess again for a minute. Funny, true story. My roomie P was cackling quite loud one night...so I went to see what was that damn funny. Now usually it's some dumbass video on YouTube that he's watching but that night it was Copernicus, now I found this even funnier then he did, mostly because in my office at work I have a sign about Flying Monkeys and I have a Flying Monkey that it kinda like a slingshot that screams when you throw him. It kind of made my night so much that I had to show Copernicus to Spawn. Spawn in her 10 year old wisdom said "Gosh mom, he looks like he fell face first on the beach and it just stayed"

So advice columns, those can be a funny read. Sometimes you really have to wonder, just how messed up these peoples decision making skills are if they have to write in for some of this stuff. The comments are even better. It's like a open fourm in real time. Oddly enough, I know some of the commenters in real life so it enhances my entertainment value.

So I hope in some way if you're reading this you've at least smiled. If you haven't, I've given you a link to a blog where it is a guarantee and if not then I will see about borrowing Copernicus to give you a hug. :) The thought of that made me smile. So I'm going to figure out what to do with this dear blog, I'm open to suggestions...if anyone is still reading that is. let me know.

"The best revenge is a life well lived"

The actual quote by George Herbert is "Living well is the best revenge" but either way you get the general idea. I think that this is something important to remember since we just finished with the holiday season. It was said recently by my roomie K to a situation that was just pissing all of us off making us think not nice things during the season that we should only think nice things about others and it struck a cord with me.

As I said in a recent last post, I am having seething rage from hell "anger" issues regarding certain issues involving my ex, his lack of involvement in Spawn's life and his tendency to want to just ride in and "be a part of things" and a make decisions, all while not contributing to her care or upkeep. Sure he can just put up a few posts on Facebook and some old pictures and what...all of a sudden he gets the "Awesome Dad of the Year Award"?  So now, he's moved back...I think I mentioned that in my last post. He got made at me last week because Spawn has been refusing to talk to him and I haven't been picking up the phone. I only talk to him when I have something to say and right now I don't have anything to say. He's not helping with the expenses and that would really be all I have to say to him is when is he going to pay something more then $20...

I recently posted some pictures on my Facebook...I know, it's a big deal. Several of them however were of myself, Spawn and my sweetie. I think that bothered my ex. But I mean really, Spawn was in his wedding 4 years ago and in is wedding pictures. That didn't bother me. I would get Christmas card from him and his now soon to be ex wife before they were married signed "Merry Christmas from Ex, Ex's Girlfriend and Spawn" and still I said nothing. But let me put up a picture of myself, my sweetie and spawn and he thinks about taking down his Facebook.

Now really, I'm just venting. That's what my blog is here for. To get this all out, believe me, my journal...well both of them have pages of this, trying to direct my anger...this seething anger that I have because he thinks that we need to be happy he's finally graced us with his company once again. But I realized something. Overall, I'm happy. I'm in therapy to deal with the anger but when I don't think about it, I'm happy. So while I may be dealing with my unresolved rage at his actions, I'm the one that Spawn wants to go see things like Beauty and the Beast in 3D with and it's my sweetie that she asks for when we talk about going places.

At the end of the day, this is my life...for the most part, I really like it. The parts I don't...believe me...they will be changing. Because one of the things that I have learned over the last 10 years is that if you don't like where you are and what's going on in your life then do something about it. Oh and another thing I've learned is only you can determine your reaction to things. I am going to try to choose not to react. I'll let you know how that works. 

Holy Mother of God and all her crazy nephews...

Things have been happening lately that has made me say "WTF are you thinking!! shocked me. I can not share the all of the specific details just yet, but I will say that my carefully placed snow-globe was turned upside down, shaken (not stirred) and then plopped back down.

Okay, we'll start with the obvious in case those of you out there in blog land are worried, no I have not lost my job (thank goodness) I'm not getting married (although we are doing fine and our year anniversary was in Oct) and nothing has happened to Spawn.

There that about covers what hasn't happened. What has happened is going to be an adventure, although it's not mine to travel it has the potential to completely turn my world upside down. To put it mildly this is going to take a lot of therapy. I'm worried on the potential effect that this is going to have on Spawn. What I can tell you is that the Empire has return to the sector of the Galaxy. So far she's refusing to see Vader and somehow that's my fault. Pushing her to see him/talk to him causes negative reactions. I pushed her to talk to him both days this weekend and last night for the first time in a long time she wet the bed. Good thing we have therapy tomorrow....perhaps she can tell me how to move forward with this. This is so hard sometimes. When they have issues...well what are you going to do right?

I guess you just hold on and work to make it better because it really does get better.

Till next time... 

Getting back to me

So here we are, rapidly hurling toward the end of the year. Did you ever just wonder for a moment where the time went? I've asked myself that question several times this year. 


This year...wow, it's crazy to think that it's almost over. It's marked some real milestones in my life. I finished my MBA (YAY!!!) I turned 35. My sweetie and I celebrated our first year together. (Okay so that might not be that big but those of you that know me...you know one year with the same person is HUGH)  Let's here it for bad track records and actually learning from one's mistakes. 


I've also let go of a lot of complete burning hatred bad feelings toward Vader because I've come to realize that regardless of what I did, did not do, said or did not say...it made no difference. At the end of the day I was going to be the only one here footing the bill doing what needed to be done. 


Spawn is still mostly stable. It started to be touch and go because she saw Vader in October. The effect he has on her is negative and long lasting. I just don't know what to do and how to handle it sometimes. How do you tell someone that they are having a negative effect on your child and you wish they would just go away when you know that somewhere, somehow that person really is doing the best they can but it just isn't good enough? I'm still working on that one. It's sad though and it really breaks my heart. Spawn wants her dad but she wants what her idea of her dad should be and he doesn't live up to it. I get caught in the middle and it's no fun. 


But on the bright side, Christmas is in two weeks and I have almost all none of my shopping done. But I have ideas. Ideas are better then actually having shopping done, because shopping can be easy if you know what you're going for. I used to be the queen of Christmas Eve shopping before Spawn. 


Well that is all for now luvs, You know I can never stay away too long. Besides, we're going into 2012...there might be strange things afoot...till next time...Ciao!!!

Life is a Cabaret

So it's no secret that I am involved in community theater. Sometimes more involved then others mind you, but always, always I have some pinky grip on a season. For the longest time (the years I was in school) I was forced to only watch from the sidelines and limit my participation. Last year I was lucky enough to be pushed into a much needed stage appearance and gained not only a part of myself back but was introduced to the love of my life.

Belonging to a community theater is like having a really big, ever expanding extended family. I am lucky enough to have one that encompasses 3 theaters in the area and I wouldn't trade any of them. Which brings me to the point of this post. 10 years ago, we did a show...Cabaret. It was amazing. From the director, whom I had worked with since my first show at that theater to members of the cast, we bonded, kept in touch, and now there is a new cast. There are a few of us back for the ride but we have the opportunity to create the experience again with new members.

I know that it will be an experience that will bring back many memories while making new ones. Of all the shows that I have done (with the exception of the last one for obvious reasons) it has been the most special. So stay tuned, I'm sure this won't be my last post on the subject.

In a related but different topic, my boyfriend (who is amazingly talented and yes I'm biased but if he sucked I would say that too) and I are about to embark on a adventure in our relationship...no we're not getting married, but we are going to attempt to be in shows at the same time in different theaters...For most people going on vacation is the real test of a relationship, well for us it will be shows running at the same time. I'll keep you posted on that too.

Till next time luvs, Ciao

Change of Direction

Wow two posts in as many days, I guess when I come back I come back...

Okay so for those of you that have read from the beginning, I thank you. For those I have picked up along the way, I am so glad you're here. When I started this blog, I was trying to come to terms with my life. I had just had a really bad break up, my poor Spawn was so out of control it wasn't funny (Actually Taz looked more in control at the time) and now here we are two and a half years later I think that I am pretty much back in control of where I need to be.

My Spawn is more in control and she and I have learned to deal with each other and the challenges that we are facing better, I have an amazing relationship (I am so glad I got hijacked into that audition back in Sept of last year)  the MBA is finished and I am trying to figure out what to do now. So things have evened out.

Which leaves me with my blog, I don't really know what to write about. I mean I can write about the dance classes that Spawn goes to, the challenges of a serious relationship when one of you is a single parent and both of you are always running to shows and auditions for community theater. I can write about community theather, where the drama is not always just on the stage. But would you want to read about it.

I hope that you will, for this is where I am and since I know that those of you that have been reading have been a wonderful source of support for me, hopefully I have in some small way done something for you as well. I look forward to the next stage of the journey and hope that you all still go with me.

By the way, have any of you ever taught a cat to fetch? Mine seems to have started.

Update...

Wow, it’s been about 6 months since I posted…

There has been so much that has happened in that time that I just got lost somewhere in living and forgot to come back and update. First let me congratulate MooNBeansMama on the pending arrival of Bean. I’m so happy for her. It’s always encouraging to see awesome things happen to good people. She’s due in Feb right before Spawn’s birthday. (Which is an awesome time to have a baby if I do say so myself)

Okay so on to the update… Spawn has finished 3 rd grade with honor roll of course. She did wonderfully well with her school work and passed the FCAT with a 4 in both subjects. For those of you that are not in Florida, the FCAT is this god awful test that has to be taken by the kids here. Everyone I know hates it and I know that my Spawn was so nervous before it that it was crazy. So in August we’re going to 4 th grade. She did AMAZING in dance and we’re going to be doing that again next season as well. There have been no more issues since we had her medication straightened out and there has been a noticeable decrease in anger outbursts in the last 6 months. That has at least given me a small break and we have been able to resume normal activities. Child support is still an issue, I talk to Vader from time to time and he was in town for Spawn’s dance recital. Maybe one day he’ll be able to make payments, till then I pay everything myself and get pissed about it…

Let’s see, for my update…January to May was the worst 16 weeks of my life but I GRADUATED!!!! Yes, you read that right, I finished my MBA!!! I meant to write a post right after graduation but I have been on a 2 month boycott of my computer. Going to school on-line does that to a person. The show I did at the theater I belong to had their award ceremony last month andi I won an award for the role that I portrayed. That show will always be special because I met my sweetie during it. Speaking of my sweetie; today is 9 months for us. I’m rather proud of myself that we’ve made it to 9 months and we still like each other. I’m just as crazy about him now as I was when I first met him…well that isn’t exactly true. I think I’m even crazier about him. I’m such a sap really… but I fell and I fell hard. Okay there I said it. I think that I am most amazed every day by the fact that he and Spawn get along so well. It’s wonderful to watch the two of them, and to spend time with both of them and not have to worry about always getting a sitter.

In other news, work’s still crazy but then hence the title of the blog. We are trying to do the best we can in an uncertain time in a state that is even more uncertain about funding for such services, but this is not the place to go into politics. We have been going completely crazy busy for the past few months with a new billing system and I have implemented a new auditing system. Every day I think “What in the name of hell were we thinking?” “This is going to get better…” I keep waiting and hoping and working for it.

Okay so that is the update, I promise it will not be 6 months till the next one. Thanks to Jeff Rivera at www.GatekeepersPost.com for the email yesterday. I appreciate your reading and your email reminded me that I need to get back to this.
Till next time Ciao

Back in a Snow Globe

So I haven't been posting much lately. It's not because there isn't much going on but because I am so far into burnout that I just can't put my thoughts into words. I'm having trouble focusing on things at work, the things I have to do for school, hell I have trouble going to the store with a list.

I keep telling myself that there is only a set number of weeks left, 13 at the time of this post, until I complete my MBA. I'm so burnt out that I can't even be happy about it. I have so many people telling me how proud I should be of myself, how hard it must have been to accomplish what I have and of course my personal favorite "I don't know how you do all that you do."  Well I don't either, I don't think about it most of the time because if I do then I will get depressed.

I feel at times like my life is a snow globe and just for giggles some one shakes it up to see what would happen. I can tell that I'm fighting to make it through... (le sigh)

Work is crazy as hell normal but busy as we try to improve things by going electronic. Why we thought this was better I don't know. But there it is. Oh well, on to the next week. My baby turns 9 this week, on Thurs. Can't wait. till then.

A New Year, A New Hope...

So we made it through the holidays!!!! YAY!!!! There were only minor incidents with family, Spawn did not have any major melt downs and we even got her room cleaned.

Amazing I know.

I found out on Christmas Eve that the Empire was dissolving. Apparently there is a divorce happening. This information gave me no joy. It's strange, I have such mixed feelings for Vader. Part of me wants to be able to get along for Spawn's sake. To "see the good still in him" the other part can't stand the person that he is around me and the person I become around him. I feel bad, after all he was once a person I was in love with.

He asked to see spawn. I asked her and got a rather negative reaction which we will be discussing with her therapist today. So she didn't see him but I had to pick up her stuff from him. It's always a shock since we go so long between seeing each other. Every now and then I see the person that I knew, the one that attracted me to him in the first place. Just enough of a flash to keep that damn hope anywhere near alive. Maybe he really will make massive changes in his life. Maybe...As long as whatever he does is consistent I don't care. It's either in or out, Spawn can't take the yo-yo thing and I can't let it happen.

So here we go, onward to a new year, with new possibilities. Starting Jan 10 I have 16 weeks left of school then I will have the MBA. YAY!!! I can't wait.

Well till later...

Two Days till Christmas

Or two sleeps till Christmas as my girl Moos Mamma say. I like how she puts it. Makes it sound more...I don't know exactly, just better. Right now, I'm on VACATION!!! Vacation from work and a break from school, YAY!! I so needed this time. Spawn and I are going to spend all next week together.

There hasn't been too much going on. Things with DiNozzo are amazing. He and Spawn get along and that is awesome. Things are fairly quite from the Empire, aside from not paying his child support. I guess because Spawn won't talk to him when he bother's to call he feels that he shouldn't obey a court order. Here's hoping that changes soon.

So here we are racing toward Christmas, all the cookies are baked, all the presents are almost bought and despite everything it's going to be an amazing Christmas. I get to spend it with my closest friends and family, my spawn and my sweetie.

What happened to Nov

Okay so as mentioned in the previous post, I did type a post in Nov and I really did think that I posted it. Um, yeah well that was about the time that all hell broke loose in mine and spawn's life so (shrugs) things happen.

Sometimes we look at things we go through and situations we're in and we mentally divorce ourselves from them. We're there but not really there. I had one of those hell bent, OMFG please tell me this is not happening in my life moments last month. As many of you that read this blog, and many of you that I read as well, know dealing with what we deal with on a daily basis with our children that have mental illness is in a word difficult. There is always the constant struggle to make sure that they are receiving the right services, the right care, the right everything. The keeping of ones temper when they are suddenly in a manic phase, the temper tantrums, the struggling to parent and get through to them when it seems like you can't reach them at all.

And I play both mom and dad. Thank god for my friends and my roomies that are wonderfully supportive, my boyfriend too. Coming into a situation like this is never easy, hell dating as a single parent is hard enough, when you add all this on top of it it's damn near impossible. But I digress, Okay here goes, Spawn had a bad med reaction and her first hospitalization, she was inpatient for almost a week. I think the hardest thing for me to come to grips with besides the fact that it was needed, was I work there.  Her meds are more stable now and while things are not perfect, they are at least better.

As I mentioned in previous posts, I had to go to court last month as well due to Vader not paying his child support. Well to make a long story short, he didn't show up, reported that he lived and worked in the state and then requested a phone conference for the hearing because of working out of state. The hearing officer was less then pleased. So if he gets caught doing anything then he will be arrested and there is a $1000 purge or 60 days in jail. He's called a few times however I am still under advisement from her therapist not to respond due to her reaction the last time and the fact that she gets angry every time he's mentioned. I offer her the chance to return his call. So far she hasn't taken it. I'm sure you're wondering why I just don't try to talk to him about all this. Well, he doesn't think I'm worth talking to, so I don't think he's worth picking up the phone for.

In other news, the show I was in went wonderfully. B and I are still doing good, it will be two months soon. I'm enjoying it and I believe he is too. He is greatly supportive and I needed that right now. Work is still insane, but well, that is to be expected.

So in the mean time, I'm going to keep hoping that Spawn's meds work, hope that Vader pays even a little of the support, hell I'd take just enough to pay for her dance lessons for a month, or even a week of day care. Something, anything to help. Between the meds, the dr's and the therapy co-pays I am getting eaten alive. According to the court order he's supposed to pay half of the co-pays for any visits. I haven't even bothered to ask since he won't pay anything toward the monthly that is due, I know  he wouldn't pay anything toward those.

Well onward to the holidays and I will not go so long in between posts.

Hell Week and everything that went with it....

Note: this post is way late due to complications in the month of Nov. I thought I hit post and didn't, so here is the post that should have happened on Nov 13.

So this week has been hell week. Basically what that means is that the show I'm in, Over the River and Through the Woods opened last night. So we've been running tech all week and wow...boy do I mean wow...anyone who has done community theater knows what I mean by that.

In other news, also this week I had a total of 3 external audits at work with one to get ready for and a holiday in the middle of the week for Veteran's Day (which also happens to be my birthday and dress rehearsal for our show) I'm not really sure I could have packed more into one week.

I've been under so much stress lately. With school, work, the show, continuing issues with Harmony...one of the few things that is going well right now is my relationship with DiNozzo. During the run of the show, actually in two days we'll make one month. I'm so proud of us. Well more as it happens.

So it's the end of the week...

So here we are...Friday....Oh Praise the Flying Spaghetti Monster and all his noodlely appendages. I so needed Friday to happen...Just the idea of Friday is a great comfort to me.

So this week has been less then thrilling in a good way. The BF (whom I {with help}have decided reminds me of DiNozzo from NCIS and henceforth shall be named so) will hopefully be sprung from the place of medical entrapment tomorrow.  That will be one less thing to worry about. I dislike it when people I care about are ill. It bothers me.

So in other news, tonight I get to see my boys from NY. M has been on of my close friends for, oh hell I can't even remember how long. We met a million years ago when he worked at the bowling alley and I bowled in a league every Friday night. His second or so night, he was stuck with the league I was on (which was a tough league to deal with) so we met and became friends. He's getting married to his BF, R, in June which I will be making a journey north for. For old times sake, we're going bowling tonight. Should be fun. Who knows...but time with them is always fun.

Tomorrow night, a Halloween party....we'll see what trouble I can not get into then.

Till then, Ciao Luvs

Well..um...

Okay so I'm not sure what in the name of Zen happened. I think my life blew up....

There are problems with Spawn at school....every day I get a call to the school. It's so bad that the front office staff and I have a running joke about how long it's going to take me to leave my job and go to work there. None of the doctors can figure out what is really going on with her. I really hope that one day I can look back on this time and just be glad that we got through it.

We go back to court on Nov 17th for the child support. Vader is in contempt since he hasn't paid in 4 months and hasn't been in contact with them.

Things are going well with the new BF...I haven't figured out a name for him on here yet...I'm open to suggestions though as I do need to refer to him as something. He's been in the hospital this week. What a way to start a new relationship, "here go through a major illness with me and see if you can handle it" Got to love those unexpected things. But I'm crazy about him so, we'll see.

Other then that, work is crazy (see blog name for my take on that) and school is, well, I finished a semester and started a new one. Not including the semester I am in, I have two more classes. I'm almost there finally!!!!! I am 8 weeks till Christmas break and damn do I need it, I'm in the 3rd semester of a 3 semester haul....those are hard with a full time job and kid.

Well off to work with me, thanks for reading all. It means more to me then you'll ever know.

Just when you don't expect it...

Just when you don't expect it you get smacked with whatever the Fates think is funny to throw in your path. Right now for me, that happens to be a new person in my life. They (The Fates) know damn good and well that I don't have time for this right now with school, work, Spawn, Spawn's dance class, my re-commitment to theater, etc. However, Fate seemed to not only have a sense of humor about all of this, they got help from my friends.

Now it really is true that you do get by with a little help from your friends (Thank you Ringo) In this case my friends pushed me into something that I love and in turn I met someone that I think I will love, already do love, am completely swept away by. Well hell, he makes me giddy and I don't do giddy.

The coolest part about this entire thing is that we sync, there are a lot of times where he will say exactly what I am thinking. He says that I do the same thing to him. So right now, we're all bright and shiny. I'll post an updates as this goes on. So far I can say that the first 3 weeks have been wonderful. I can't wait to see what happens next.